you win

you know how when you were about nine or ten, and you felt like you could take on the whole world and conquer just about everything you've ever wanted to conquer?

when you get to seventeen i think it's time to admit defeat. being an eternal optimist is hard work.

and, i never knew friends had a sell-by date. five years ago we talked about forever and bridesmaid plans but now everything we say is so superficial, if we even talk at all.