it's cny eve and i wonder why i'm not excited

okay, so i'm not exactly wondering cos i know precisely why. with CTs looming, the cny break doesn't seem like a picture of sunshine and roses :( and with how things are getting along at home, i really dont think my cny's gonna be good.

i hate it when 3 people get on my back at the same time when i'm already wiped out by stuff all week, when misundertandings get in the way and every little thing i say comes across as an upfront challenge, when they assume i mean something in a way i do not, when i'm not even given a chance to explain and automatically dismissed as defiant, when nothing's been said about what you've done the whole week but a lot about what you didn't, and when i ask questions which get side-stepped and accusations and unreasonable demands thrown in my face in the place of an answer. growllll this is spoiling all the joy i've had the whole week. am becoming more withdrawn at home, maybe the only good thing that comes out of it is that i've got a lot more energy to channel into school and friends, but in the long run?

phwoar have got a lot of better stuff to think about and focus on so pah to little issues. think happy thoughts think happy thoughts.