for what we already knew but chose to ignore

for something that i'd known right from the beginning was inevitable, being reminded of its impending arrival hit me with the realization that it's been years since our paths have crossed. a year and a half ago i'd believed i've seen the last of you, when whatever relationship that existed between us turned awkward and then dwindled off into non-existence, but i forgot about the little red dot being so small and all, and you'd pop out of a crowd once in awhile. today i'm suddenly reminded that this time it's goodbye for real. to think that i thought it'd be easy bidding farewell for a second time? for lack of a better word, i feel weird.