falling back

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

everytime i try to pull myself out of it all something has to come along and suck me into the very black hole i've been trying to avoid.

my pride's not letting me admit the very things which are getting to me. gahhhh

alright i don't make sense, not even to myself. i need to run, NO not the 2.4 kinda run (mine is, by the way, scheduled for TOMORROW), but the without-a-time-limit kinda run. you know the kind of run where you work your legs till you don't feel them anymore and everything, inlcuding your breathing, your pulse, your rhythm becomes so synchronised it's almost automatic? yes that kind of run. AAARGHH.

sort of like running away

maybe that should be the least of my worries at the moment, what with trial spa and 2.4 coming up TOMORROW dang TOMORROW and the whole chain of tests and assignments that follow after. i solemnly swear the school is up to no good, teachers are hatching evil plans to kill us with the amount of work they've prepared to dump on us! AAARGHHH.

on a happier note, i actually passed my probability and PnC test. hooray?